OK...so i would say that i failed at the spartacus workout..i only did one round of it and then thought...ok im going on the treadmill to finish..i can workup to finishing it..hopefully on friday i finish the whole thing..the sad thing is that im soooo out of shape, that even just from one round of it i was so dead and wanted to throw up...i actually had to stop and hold it in...every time I think im going to throwup i think of bob harper from biggest loser, where he was yelling at this girl because she was quitting, because she was going to throw up, and he said if youre going to throw up that grab that bucket and do it and get back to work..if i dont see you throwing up im going to yell at you and make you workout harder...it was something along those lines...i loved it...so everytime i think im going to, i think of that, pause for 5 seconds and push myself a little harder...it sucks but i guess it will be worth it in the long run....

Is rice good for you? i always wonder if its even good for you but never seen to want to look it up..oh well.. im having rice and mixed veggies for lunch!  some people are probably like..umm gross what a bland lunch..but im actually craving it bad HAHAHA. sheesh

tootles

spartacus?

Going to be starting a new workout...the spartacus (blood and sand), ive done it before and i find it really hard..the last time I started it..i only did it 3 times in one week, and then never attempted it again, I feel like i really need to start it up again, and stick with it, I need to accomplish something and stick with something for once in my life, and i figured, what better thing to start with, its hard, will make me feel better about myself, and will be a huge accomplishment knowing that i have stuck with it...i also want to be able to see progress in myself with my weight, and with doing this working and if i can do the moves better after a while, because they are hard!!!!!

if you are interested just youtube" Spartacus: Blood and Sand "official workout"...it should be a guy with ripped abs lol that looks like a spartacan..is that how you say that...no idea..but you should get the point..i hope ..oh well lol

anywho..about this weekend, my mom was over since my dad is hunting, and i went nuts with the food and ate way to much of bad stuff, I was down to 189 and im back up to 193.. FUCK MY LIFE! why do i do this to myself??? i seriously need someone to just yell at me all the time and someone to make my food and lock all the other food away..but i guess i need to learn self control..its just hard when i want to eat everything under the sun haha...back to working out I go!!!!