Wednesday, 31 October 2012
Weighed in today! i really dont like the scale at my doctors...because my scale is telling me that im 191.6lbs...which is awesome, but I just dont like the fact that their scale is telling me 198, now they have on file that im bigger then I am...argggggg lol. oh well. i guess this is all i have to say for now..
Tuesday, 30 October 2012
SIGH
NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT NOW!
NEED TO WORKOUT EVERYDAY
NEED TO EAT BETTER
NEED TO DRINK ALOT OF WATER
NEED TO BECOME MOTIVATED IN LIFE
NEED TO BECOME MORE CONFIDENT IN MYSELF
NEED TO MOVE OUT OF DADS
NEED TO FIND A JOB SOMEWHERE
NEED TO GO TO SCHOOL
NEED TO BUY A HOUSE
NEED TO HAVE A FAMILY
ARRRRRRRRGGGGG
Yesterday, I had a doctors appointment..this is the first time I have gone to my doctors for something other then a meet and greet, and the first doctor I have had in about 3 years...so hard to find one thats taking on new patients...luckily I asked if there was any other doctors available in the office for Jason, and there was! 2 women and one male, so he got the male doctor..YAY! ..
Anywho, I had all my blood pressure, and all that other crap done, and a weigh in and height check, and the friggin scale said 198...WHAT THE FUCK! ..this can not be...I know I spent the day at my sisters and I had eaten and had tea right before going, plus I wore my sweater, so I am sure this has something to do with it!! I sure hope so atleast!
Ive been finding the last week and a bit really stressfull...or maybe im depressed, not having work, and living at my dads is taking a toll on me and I just dont want to do anything anymore, its like...I wake up at 8 and i just dont want to move...whats the point right..then I get up and take ty out, and then i just feel llike coming in and sitting on the couch!..i really need to get out of this habit but its so hard right now.
42 day until our honeymoon, and im freaking out because i know i wont look awesome, like i could have if i had of kept working out after we got married, now i have to lose like 15 pounds just to get the what i was 3 months ago...wtf was i thinking when i started eating like a fat cow, cramming everything I possibly could into my face! uhhhh...im so dusgusted with myself..not to mention, i got a total beat down by the doctor saying im overweight and need to lose this weight. No shit...its just hard..someone shoot me?
since i dont really know if anyone reads this, I dont really care about spelling right now, or if im blabbing on about the same shit over and over and over, this is for me, not for you.
FRUSTRATED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Anywho, I had all my blood pressure, and all that other crap done, and a weigh in and height check, and the friggin scale said 198...WHAT THE FUCK! ..this can not be...I know I spent the day at my sisters and I had eaten and had tea right before going, plus I wore my sweater, so I am sure this has something to do with it!! I sure hope so atleast!
Ive been finding the last week and a bit really stressfull...or maybe im depressed, not having work, and living at my dads is taking a toll on me and I just dont want to do anything anymore, its like...I wake up at 8 and i just dont want to move...whats the point right..then I get up and take ty out, and then i just feel llike coming in and sitting on the couch!..i really need to get out of this habit but its so hard right now.
42 day until our honeymoon, and im freaking out because i know i wont look awesome, like i could have if i had of kept working out after we got married, now i have to lose like 15 pounds just to get the what i was 3 months ago...wtf was i thinking when i started eating like a fat cow, cramming everything I possibly could into my face! uhhhh...im so dusgusted with myself..not to mention, i got a total beat down by the doctor saying im overweight and need to lose this weight. No shit...its just hard..someone shoot me?
since i dont really know if anyone reads this, I dont really care about spelling right now, or if im blabbing on about the same shit over and over and over, this is for me, not for you.
FRUSTRATED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wednesday, 24 October 2012
My WEIGHT and MEASURMENTS!
Height- 5'6
Starting weight: 193 pounds
Goal Weight: 130-135 pounds
Measurements:
Bust: 40 inches
under the bust-35 inches
around stomach(belly button)- 42 inches
hips-45 inches
sigh.....ive never been this big before..the biggest change ive noticed is under my boob area..someone just punch me out right now?
Height- 5'6
Starting weight: 193 pounds
Goal Weight: 130-135 pounds
Measurements:
Bust: 40 inches
under the bust-35 inches
around stomach(belly button)- 42 inches
hips-45 inches
sigh.....ive never been this big before..the biggest change ive noticed is under my boob area..someone just punch me out right now?
Today is the first day of my weight loss journey, I am 22 Years old, and weigh in at 193lbs! yikers! this really needs to change!, I was recently married, (august 4th 2012) and weighed 180lbs, I have gained 13 pounds in about 3 months! so brutal!!!
So today I am restarting, there are many reasons as to why I am looking to lose weight, One is quite obvious and that is my health, I want to be healthy inside and out.Another reason is so that i can stop feeling like a fat blob, I always look at big women, who range probably over 250, and think...gosh how do they let themselves get that big, ill never let myself get to that size, and now I think...look how easy it is, if i gained 13 pounds in just under 3 months, imagine the size i would be a couple more months from now without doing anything about this issue, so i realize how easy it is to gain this weight, and have everything spiral out of control! I also want to lose weight because of family history, my dad keeps on saying that he hopes my sister and I dont end up like my mother with all her health problems, so part of my weight loss journey is to make myself healthier, so that i can block out many health problems, that i already see happening in my future.Today in the beginning!
Also, Our honeyMoon is December 11-18th. so I am hoping to get atleast back down to 180 or less..would be nice!!
So today I am restarting, there are many reasons as to why I am looking to lose weight, One is quite obvious and that is my health, I want to be healthy inside and out.Another reason is so that i can stop feeling like a fat blob, I always look at big women, who range probably over 250, and think...gosh how do they let themselves get that big, ill never let myself get to that size, and now I think...look how easy it is, if i gained 13 pounds in just under 3 months, imagine the size i would be a couple more months from now without doing anything about this issue, so i realize how easy it is to gain this weight, and have everything spiral out of control! I also want to lose weight because of family history, my dad keeps on saying that he hopes my sister and I dont end up like my mother with all her health problems, so part of my weight loss journey is to make myself healthier, so that i can block out many health problems, that i already see happening in my future.Today in the beginning!
Also, Our honeyMoon is December 11-18th. so I am hoping to get atleast back down to 180 or less..would be nice!!
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