Yesterday, I had a doctors appointment..this is the first time I have gone to my doctors for something other then a meet and greet, and the first doctor I have had in about 3 years...so hard to find one thats taking on new patients...luckily I asked if there was any other doctors available in the office for Jason, and there was! 2 women and one male, so he got the male doctor..YAY! ..
Anywho, I had all my blood pressure, and all that other crap done, and a weigh in and height check, and the friggin scale said 198...WHAT THE FUCK! ..this can not be...I know I spent the day at my sisters and I had eaten and had tea right before going, plus I wore my sweater, so I am sure this has something to do with it!! I sure hope so atleast!
Ive been finding the last week and a bit really stressfull...or maybe im depressed, not having work, and living at my dads is taking a toll on me and I just dont want to do anything anymore, its like...I wake up at 8 and i just dont want to move...whats the point right..then I get up and take ty out, and then i just feel llike coming in and sitting on the couch!..i really need to get out of this habit but its so hard right now.
42 day until our honeymoon, and im freaking out because i know i wont look awesome, like i could have if i had of kept working out after we got married, now i have to lose like 15 pounds just to get the what i was 3 months ago...wtf was i thinking when i started eating like a fat cow, cramming everything I possibly could into my face! uhhhh...im so dusgusted with myself..not to mention, i got a total beat down by the doctor saying im overweight and need to lose this weight. No shit...its just hard..someone shoot me?
since i dont really know if anyone reads this, I dont really care about spelling right now, or if im blabbing on about the same shit over and over and over, this is for me, not for you.
FRUSTRATED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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